Lost In Translation

So, my notebook of 5 years finally decided to die on me.
I think I did alright. Considering the fact that in those 5 years, I've never reformatted my computer once (despite the fact that it's recommended that we do so once a year), it's a PC (in contrast to a Mac), and I carry it almost everywhere I go.
I think I did alright.

I take luxurious care of my Dell. I pamper it (even if it doesn't look like I do) with great security settings, anti-viruses, spyware products and a concrete firewall. But as of a week ago today, the harddisk decided to breathe its last breath, I suppose. It's a good thing I've got most of my important files backed up.
Minus some awesome music, I think I'm ready for something new now.

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Camp was great.
I guess the laptop dying bit has got something to do with that as well.
Towards camp, I was expecting for a breakthrough in my reliance in God. It's really easy, I find for myself, to fall into securities like a proper job placement, money, comfort, a good company of friends and so forth. In other words, it's easy for me to get comfortable in my surroundings and place emphasis on such materials in the world. But with the realisation of that, I guess it was inevitable that I needed to sort myself out to ultimately place my reliance in God, to say that whatever circumstance He might want to put me through - however crappy things can get - my security will not be found in these things but in Him alone.

And hence with that, anything that could've gone wrong in camp for me just did.
Media stuff not working, computer dying, not getting enough rest, etc.
The challenge was then to still look up - despite the circumstances - and say that it's okay. I still trust in Him.

Out of the two interviews I look forward to hearing back from (the third really doesn't count at the moment), one has turned me down. The other company was supposed to get back to me by Tuesday this week. When I called them on Tuesday, they said that there's been some difficulties processing some information and so they'll give me a feedback by the end of this week.
The week has come to an end, and still no answer.

Life is getting harder.
I'm thinking of actually quitting my job at the cafe within the next two weeks as well already because I'd like to free up some time to focus on my studies. I can't believe I'm gonna be finished with uni (period) in less than two months.

Yet will I praise You.
You are worthy of it and so much more.
And here, by Your side, I'll continue to find rest.
Nothing else satisfies anymore.

2 Kings 2:23-24 (New International Version)

Elisha Is Jeered

23 From there Elisha went up to Bethel. As he was walking along the road, some youths came out of the town and jeered at him. "Go on up, you baldhead!" they said. "Go on up, you baldhead!" 24 He turned around, looked at them and called down a curse on them in the name of the LORD. Then two bears came out of the woods and mauled forty-two of the youths.

Heed my words.

Autumn is here.
And tonight, for the first time in what has seemed like forever, I picked up my camera.
I laid on the grass, eyes open to the darkness above, and snapped under the yellow leaves.

It doesn't snow here.
But as the leaves glide and swing their way down to the ground to join the green below, I thought it was just as good as already.

A new day has come.
A new season to look forward to.

I can't wait.

I missed home today.

The carelessness. The humidity. Bad traffic, yet I don't mind. Crap music on the radio. The good food everywhere anytime. All that.

So for breakfast, I made kaya toast and some half-boiled eggs with pepper and soy sauce to dip in.

I can't wait for July.

I think God has a funny way of His own to define beauty; a definition we will never grasp.
We've become too blind.

We're not that far off, really.

It's been a crazy week.

A few things in my head right now; namely being:

1) How upset I am at my Dell. My laptop has failed on me again. In the span of a month, my harddisk has died, and now, the graphics card is failing. My screen looks like a 3D optical illusion right now. Everything is safe. My files are not gone.

I. Just. Can't. See. Them.

2) I also can't get over the Greek wedding I attended during the weekend. It was my first Greek wedding ever, and I swear it is the most fascinating wedding I've ever been to! The music is crazy! I don't get a single thing that's going on but that Saturday was the most mesmerising day I've ever experienced. From the groom's grandmother swirling olive incense around the family members, to the elders taking turns to wrap a red ribbon around his waist, to the crazy dancing to the crazy music that seemingly went on for hours... I absolutely loved it!

3) I really want to go to Czech Republic in September. Planetshakers is organising a Missions trip for about two weeks there then, and I'm short by about $2,000.
I really want to go.

4) I also need a new laptop. Duh. That would be about RM4,999 for the XPS M1530 (approx. $1,500).
More moolah needed.

5) I still want my Canon 5D. I'm not even gonna bother mentioning the price for that one...

6) The good news is that I'm officially employed. As of late July, I start work as an Accountant finally. Fingers crossed, I'll be done with uni life for good as of late June, and then I'll be jetting off back home to Malaysia for about 3 weeks (hole in pocket again) before coming back just in time to embrace worklife.
That's right. The transition from having 4 months of holidays a year down to 4 weeks begins.
Hooray.

7) Come Celebrate! is this Friday! If you haven't gotten your ticket already, then I'll disown you.
Preparations have been pretty tedious on the Media side of things here, and with my laptop down, I can't help but feel utterly crippled. But my handicap aside, all seems to be going pretty well for it. I have some pretty high expectations for this event.
I seriously can't wait for it!

Okay. The video I was waiting for to be rendered has now been rendered and uploaded. Time to get back to business.
:)
See you all Friday!