my days on paper

What it's all about..

Exams.

For some reason I viewed exams as the obstacle I had to overcome to take a step closer toward my dreams. I mean, they bring distress, panic, impatience, weariness, grief, grim and a whole lot of other negative vibes out of me, when I'm usually none of those things (I hope). If I give up, my dreams will forever be dreams. And if I don't, then I'm ready for the next 'obstacle'. *sigh*.

But I remembered there was once, during another examination period, when I was emotionally and intellectually not fit for social interaction, I prayed for our exams, and the words that came from my own mouth surprised me. It was basically about not letting the exams taking control over my life, dominating the centre of my heart and mind (hence causing a lot of pain), but its about me taking mastership over my exams. After all, we're made to be rulers over all things on Earth, not the other way around. Instead of studying out of fear because I had no choice, I would train myself to seize the exams, since it was the potential that God had already given to every one of us.

So why do I study? For the glory of God? For my dreams? For fear?

I'm happy that I remembered that prayer when I did, because it reminded me that I'm studying not because the exams made me to, but because I had a purpose, and I mean to fulfill it.

Basically, that, combined with Tim's words and Teusday's teaching materials:

Let's make those evil exams holy!