melanie's blog: April 2005 Archives

April 25, 2005

So hardworking!!!

I am at work now and my direct manager is on leave today� This leaves me here, at 3:14pm, sitting in front of my computer, with nothing else to do but feeling terribly guilty and bad. I have finished all the work that I was told to and I really have nothing else that I can think of to do� sigh� u might think it is a great feeling to have nothing to do in the office but no� it is not the kind of feeling you think you will get. The feeling is dreadful. Just feel with me for a moment. Just imagine: Here you are paid to do work, yet you have no work to do, and you can�t just sit there and do nothing while everyone else is so busy and focused doing their respective job. Just as you were thinking of doing some of your personal surfing and emailing, you feel uneasy and feel that you are constantly being watch (even though no one is!!!)� I would rather have some work to do than to sit here trying to write something while keeping myself really alert just in case anyone walk across to my desk and catch me doing this!!! =)

I still have another 2 hours to �kill� before I can knock off. What can I do??? Maybe I can follow the picture... =)

And yeah� I moved in with my Sis at Kelana Jaya. Now I am much closer to work and spend less time on the road or rather, traffic jam. Which also means that I can sleep in a lil bit more in the morning!!! No more getting up before sunrise!!! YAY!!!

But actually, I am still adjusting to the room and the bed. I get interrupted sleep, waking up every hour� I think it will take a few more days�

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April 22, 2005

Nothing can stop...

Acts 12
V4. When he had seized him, he put him in prison, delivering him to four squads of soldiers to guard him, intending after the Passover to bring him out before the people.
V6. �Peter was sleeping between two soldiers, bound with two chains and guards in front of the door were watching over the prison.

This is Peter, in prison, under the persecution of Herod. Herod has his plans, his ways of doing things, his ways to please the Jews. He wanted to put Peter to death. Having seen and heard all the wonderful miracles and the Holy Spirit at work, he is doing his best, all that he can to stop Peter from getting away. Just try to imagine, having 4 squads of soldiers guarding him, 2 soldiers sleeping beside him, bound by 2 chains and more soldiers watching the prison, who would possibly think that Peter could escape? Man can have his will but it is the way of the Lord that will prevail. Peter escaped...

Nothing. Nothing can stop what the Lord is doing.

Looking at this incidence, once again I was reminded that God is all powerful. Absolutely nothing can stop Him. Here we look at Peter, being led by the angel of the Lord and it is written that he followed the angel even though he did not know that what was being done by the angel was real (v9). Is this how it should be? Is this how we should be following Jesus, to follow the working of His Spirit in us without question or doubt that stops us from obeying Him?

Peter followed the voice of the angel, got out of the prison and headed straight to is �family� who was praying for him. He described the whole incidence, gave glory to the LORd and beckons them to REPORT (v17) to the others, to encourage them in the name of the LORD. Another thing to learn here� report, testify and give all the glory to the Lord.

Later we see that whoever or whatever that opposes the Lord will self-destruct (v19). That is powerful!!! And that is my God!! My God� is BIG� so STRONG� So mighty� there is nothing my God cannot do!

Father, you are beautiful� Thank you for this reminder that nothing can stop You!!! Teach me to be like Peter, to obey and trust, allowing the faith to take action. Teach me to keep reporting, to testify of your greatness, to encourage and build one another. Remind me always that the enemy will self destruct. May I put my trust in you and step out boldly in Spirit. You are awesome Lord, and today I know that Nothing on earth can stop what the Lord wills to do. Amen.

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April 19, 2005

April 6, 2005

Third Day

Don be mistaken, it's not the band i am talking about. I am talking about my 3rd day at work which was yesterday. Still getting used to the routine, the traffic, the people, the environment and culture. It isn't too bad except that i have not actually gotten the software i needed installed on my brand new work computer (the latest and most technologically advanced computer in the entire office), and so i can't really start doing analysis.

In the midst of my 'nothing-much-to-do-ness', i was kept quite busy with other people's unfinished work or rather less favoured work. One of the job landed on my hand really put my language ability to a test. I had to make calls to verify certain information from a form, in which i will be required to converse in Malay or Mandarin in cases where the other party do not speak English. I was defeated BIG TIME and it just put me to shame. I felt so handicapped and a bit frustrated when i have to speak their language. I struggled!!!

Till now, after some 100 phone calls, i think my ability to converse fluently and accurately in Mandarin has improved while i still sucks trying to speak Malay - my national language - what's new there???!!! :-)

Conclusion, I can't speak Malay!!!

By the way, the traffic here is terrible. It takes me about 45 minutes to travel 25km to work and more than an hour to travel the same distance home everyday. What speed am i crawling at? You do the maths!!

Better go back and do my VMSP for the team... hehe. looks like i am putting what i've learnt in ACCF into good use here.. at least i am trying.

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The Speaking Voice

It is spiritual response which God is pleading, response which He has always sought and is but rarely able to secure. The tragedy is that our eternal welfare depends upon our hearing, and we have trained our ears not to hear.
A. W. Tozer

Being in KL, this strange city with many not so nice people, it is comforting to know that I do not belong here. This is just a place where I am or need to be in this season of my life. I may live here but I do not belong here. There is another place where I know I belong, there is a place in my heart where I know I belong to someone, an alien force much greater than you and I, much greater than anything in this world and is constantly making effort to communicate with mankind. What a blessed assurance that is!!

Speaking from experience with my own weaknesses, I am very thankful for a gracious God such as this. A God who is persistent in seeking and searching for a response to His voice, a God who never stops speaking, a God who never ceases to communicate with His creation. Too often when things crowd our mind, occupy our time or cause inconveniences for us to adhere to certain disciplines, we give in to our weaknesses and make excuses. Here is where I am most thankful for the fact that God do not just speak through the written Bible or only in a church service. He is speaking here and there, now and then, filling the world with living potentiality. He speaks life to those who listen. As Tozer puts it nicely, His words affect the hearts of all men as light in the soul. In the hearts of all men the light shines, the Word sounds, and there is no escaping them.

It is because of the life in the spoken words of God, that I can hear His heart and have the power to overcome. It is by the grace of God that I am trained and is still training to be sensitive to His voice that I may come closer to the Greatest One who is above all.

Lord, teach me to listen. The times are noisy and my ears are weary with the thousand raucous sounds which continuously assault them. Give me the spirit of the boy Samuel when he said to Thee, �Speak, for thy servant heareth.� Let me hear Thee speaking in my heart. Let me get used to the sound of Thy voice, that its tones may be familiar when the sounds of earth die away and the only sound will be the music of Thy speaking voice. Amen.

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