hehehe.... yeah. you din read wrongly.. I WENT DRAGONBOATING!!!!!!! So unheard of right? Of everyone, Mel and of all kinds of sports, Dragonboat... hahaha... I was shocked too.
If you think dragonboat is only about the arm, then you are sooooo wrong. My whole body is still aching after 2 days. Really everywhere man. The shoulder, arm, back, leg... everywhere is aching.. but muscle ache is what i always say "GOOD PAIN". Liking the feeling.... its the kind of pain that you know you have worked out and that your body is responding in a good way....your muscles are repairing itself and expanding your power and strength. its not a bad pain.. it is good.
And because of the 2 hours of sun, I think i am like 5 shades darker. I looked myself in the mirror after the sports and i was pleasantly surprised by what i saw. I look tanned and healthier.. hahaha.. its all disillusionment. Its been over a year since i went out to the sun for an extended period of time. I think its fun!! (once in a while). NICE...
Did i tell you that i was on the winning boat? We had 2 boats full of people on Sat. We WON!!!
Is it just me or doctors have the ability to make you feel as if you are very sick and you are going to die soon?
You know sometimes it is so easy to overlook certain aspect of your life when you put more focus on something that is more apparent? This can happen even within the same category. I have been so concern with the health of my hip joint that i had pay no attention to the development of my underlying health condition. Somehow this can be a good thing meaning it is not getting bad enough to warrant any attention and care. In other words, it may give you the (false) impression that things are well controlled and forgotten somehow. You know, no news is good news. But then again, when you can't see it, it doesn't mean it is not there. :-)
Just went for my quarterly medical check this week. The outcome is not the best anticipated. They found a pro ++ in my urine test. What does that mean you may ask... they found some significant amount of protein in my urine and that is not terribly a good sign per se. It could have certain implications according to the doctor (it's common sense actually) haha. Just because of that pro++ sign, she went the extra mile this time, asking me to go for more test immediately and arranging for a more comprehensive test in the near future. I am thankful for her thoroughness and her professionalism in recognizing a potential threat but at the same time, i feel that doctors can be overreacting sometimes. Their words and reactions somehow make you feel that there is something majorly wrong in your body and it is terrible.
I think it is not easy to be a doctor then. You need to be honest with your patient, by telling them everything that you can speculate or guess from the symptoms either by your own descriptions or the little those diagnostical tests can tell you. No one knows the whole deal. I was just thinking how great it would be if I can know everything that goes inside my body - what is good, what is wrong and how can i prevent and cure it... then there will be no fear, speculations or false positive results that scare the guts out of you. Sadly though, we so lack in knowledge and understanding on the world we live in, even the complexity of our lives and bodies. There is only that much we can guess from the little that we see.
I don't know how to respond actually... to the statement and speculations she made regarding my health. I am very at peace and i know somehow that nothing is out of the will of God and i am perfectly fine the way i am. The thought is fearful yet I am at peace. I know i am going to be ok. It is probably another case of false positive, which i hope it is. I am learning to unfold and LIVE in the fullness of His resurrection that i am called to identify with.
Did the tests, and as long as the hospital do not ring me back, I am good. No news again is good news. Pray for me my friends. Pray with me.
life is full with events, but until you pause a bit to reflect and think about them, you never know what significance they bring. i think i am entering another one of those reflective mode... thinking about life and what it entails. It is definitely not a bed of roses, it is fragile and one can never be sure what is to happen the next minute or hour. Received the news of a high school senior's dad passing last week. It was sudden, at least for me. I almost do not know how to respond... It just further reminded me on how things are beyond my control. I know there is nothing i can do to stop the grief and nothing i can to try to even make her feel better. I can only pray...
Life whether we like it or not, is not just our preoccupation. Its not just the work we do or the job description on our employment letter. We have a soul, we have emotions, we have feelings and we are spiritual beings. I don't know what has got into me..just a sudden surge and outburst of contemplation. All the events in life do affect us somehow or rather. We can ignore, but not for too long... like for me, running around DOING things just do not do it. I need my space, there is a cry in my soul for contemplation and reflection. I sometimes starve it but i think hunger is a good indicator of being alive. When there is a hunger for contemplation and reflection, i think i am still alive in that department. Haha.... I am starting to ramble here. Its about time i take a walk with myself. And God of course. Getting tired here...
After a good 3 years of Problem-Based Learning, surviving 16 X 4 X 2 X 3 of presentations and reflection journals, constant drilling by their facilitators and 4 X 4 X 2 X 3 Understanding Tests, my final year students graduated today from their Diploma in Biomedical Science. The graduation ceremony was somber, akin those of university and distinct from the common polytechnics practice. They wore robs and hoods just like university graduates but without the mortar board.
One by one they walked up the stage and collected their hard earn diploma. It was such a 'Mama Moment'. You feel so proud of them and you wished your hands could clap louder and you could just cheer louder. I am so glad to see them graduate, to see them reach their goal and ready to take on the next step of their life journey. All of them looked so happy today and I was so proud to know that my Pussycat-eyes student Zac won the Lee Kuan Yew Award and was also awarded best student award in 2 other subjects. I am so honoured to know that he has done so well - he made me proud. All the hard work are worth this moment!! I think i am going to miss seeing all these students around the school. They are a bunch of monkeys, yet some adorable bunch!
It is priceless...
i miss uni days... i miss lectures, i miss walking into a lecture hall of 400 people, all minding their own business - saying hi to their peers or updating latest gossip. I miss the rowdiness just before the start and just before the end of the lecture - people packing their notes and rushing out of the hall even before the lecturer could finish his last sentence, as if they were running for life. What a nostalgic feeling eh? What triggered this? You may ask.
Its the second day of the International Problem-Based Learning Symposium. As part of his talk on Pedagogical BIASes and PBL, our Keynote Speaker Prof Dan Pratt from the University of British Columbia showed a short video clip of a typical lecture. It felt so familiar and close to home. I really miss those days, hopping from one lecture hall to the other, meeting different people each time, busy copying down notes as the lecture goes or trying very hard to keep myself awake. I think the best part was rushing to pack our bags and leaving the room before the lecturer could even finish his last slide. Its funny to watch it on screen, especially now as a tertiary educator myself. It is classic.
Its a nice feeling amidst the mundane conference schedule. Something to keep me feeling good i guess. If only i could go back to those time. I want to go back to school, but i think graduate school will be a whole lot different experience. No more hundreds of people attending 1 lecture. I miss lectures, i miss uni life.