as i take on the posture of Hannah, a women crying in her afflictions and barrenness, what am i asking for? 2 things... very clearly.
1. I ask that my wheels to be turned. Something in me wants to breakout, to break forth into the new. I somehow know how it looks like yet i can't be sure, there is a drawing there and I am reaching forward to it. I want the wheels of my life to be turned, starting from the first one affecting the rest causing a major difference in my world. Somehow I feel disabled, unable to reach forward or should i say that I am not sure what steps to take. I desire, yet i feel powerless, walking each day the mediocre way, doing the things i do and do them well. There is a dissatisfaction... I want to be immersed and consumed by His passion, a passion strong enough to cause my being into focus and purpose. I want to be effective, I want to be contagious and I want to be alive. As i ask, God hears and will bring into clarity the vision and purpose for this season.
2. I ask for the restorative power of God to work in and through me. Its a constant battle i fight and am still fighting. I want a restored body. A body free from disease and curse, a body free to dance, free to run and free to worship. Every single cells in my body, every single pathway and every single mechanism to obey the law of His Purpose through Creation. I ask for healing, miraculous healing of the body so that the name of the Father may be glorified.
I want to be impregnated with my own King Samuel... an offspring who brings healing to the nations... restoring His Kingdom and Glory to His Name. God, hear my prayers.
Amen.