Don't sweat the SMALL stuff!

I'm fine. Really..

I've been in such a lousy mood lately. Maybe it's the stress of having to decide for a very important area in my life. To decide whether or not I should continue or just give up and walk away. No, I'm not breaking up with Zakky. Just some stuff with uni. Hmm.. Didn't realise how sneaky someone can be. Makes me feel kinda scared, and cynical. Kinda makes me feel like I'm in the wrong instead. Oh...No details, cause someone mentioned that I should be more discreet in my entries and apparently when you google Winnie Kam, my blog comes up first. Where got?!??! I tried it and it's not even on the first page. Haha. Oh well. Persevering. Thank God my mum's supportive. SOB*

I'm fine, really. Just don't want comments like.."Relax" or "Yar. I have a terrible bla bla bla too.. bla bla bla also. (hinting that I'm not the only one facing the problem.) Gosh. I kinda snapped at a friend for asking me to relax. Felt terrible. But I absolutelyhateit when people don't bother to ask why and just ask me to relax. If you don't want to listen, don't bother asking. Then again he did look genuinely concerned. I just can't relax lar maybe. Need to sulk a little bit then I'l be fine. EEK. Sorry...

Hmm..Was really surprised when I bumped into an ex-supervisor from 2 years ago. He still remembers me. Such a nice fellow. He kinda asked, "Hie Winnie. How's it going?". Which is probably the standard Hello. And I was probably expected to reply a "Great. How about you?". I didn't expect myself to actually tell him that I wasn't doing fine...but i did. Ugh. Near tears already (This is what honours does to you!). But I had to leave for a meeting so I couldn't stay to explain. He actually stopped what he was doing, turned towards me and said that his door was always open if ever I needed to talk to someone. Woah...Too nice. I was near tears..Oh nearer than before. Haha. Anyways, I found out later that he was concerned enough to ask someone else what the situation was and offered to help me out. SIGH. I wish I could disclose every detail but I can't. Cheh. Anyways feel so touched. Gave me a glimmer of hope. Feels kinda like, "GAWD. Help me....Oh why thank You." hahha...

Anyways, three more minutes. Baked jam muffins. Hope it turns out well. Did I mention that I love to bake and cook (doesn't mean I can ok! Learning) but I don't like to eat them :P I like to feed people. Teehee. Especially people who just gobble it down like it's damn yummy. AHAHHAHAHA. Though after a while, you realise that they just gobble down everything.
Ok..gota go.