I feel extremely irritated. Wish i could type it ALL down so i dont have to bother confronting people about it. DARN! i hate this. Maybe i'm just overly stressed.
UGH!!!
Most of the time i just keep it inside so i don't have to talk to the person about it. And then it irritates the hell out of me for most of the day. Then i'm fine. Then it comes back again, like now. And i feel so irritated about it. AND it goes on and on and on. And then other people get irritated coz i'm feeling irritated and of course not everyone is NICE AND UNDERSTANDING. and of course i can't expect them to be ALL THE TIME (oh how i wish they are-being self centered for the moment, bear with me) and then from being irritated with one person, i get irritated with the other for being irritated with me and not understanding enough. Then it goes on like a chain.
so terrible!!!
I hate ****** *****
I'm tired of bothering to try at all. Nope, not going to care to do anything about anything.
I don't care about anything, just wana study.
HMPH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just wana scream it all out!!!!!
As SOME might remember, i had a presentation last week. And i went better, no, WAY better than i had expected. Thanks to clever group mates who impressed the lecturers by her clever answers. Haha. Overall, he was happy with our work =)
Got a test in 1.5 hours time but my brain a bit....sleepy still. Am at the library trying to get do last minute cramping. Can see so many people studying their brains out. Haha. Anyways, i should be too. Haha
Yawn
Iyer...i think my life is pretty boring. Nothing exciting to blog about. Everything else is probably too personal. Suddenly feel like eating Shanghai Dumplings. Ai...Anyways, am in the library hogging the computer since an hour ago. Not exactly using it for anything important. Feel a teeny-weeny bit bad cause there's probably other who might need to print their notes...or reply an urgent e-mail...or...don't care ;P
I feel so lazy i feel so lazy i feel so lazy i feel so lazy i feel so lazy i feel so
Yay...Going for camp tomorrow. Hope i get A LOT OF WORK done before i leave. Otherwise i'll feel so guilty. Gulp* Got expedition group tonight.
Need to study need to study need to study need to study need to study
Yes, yet another entry about uni. I'm starting to wonder if i have a life outside of uni...Hmm. Help.
I'm extremely afraid....no, terrified to speak in public. Let alone, present for 5 minutes on the findings of an experiment discussed in a scientific journal. Went for my group meeting just now. Found out that only 1 person volunteered to present. Everyone else was probably too chicken like mua..The non-presenters get to work on their essay by themselves and get no help from the lecturer. hahha. Was kinda surprised to see a friend in the same group. So we both volunteered to present. I think at the back of my mind, i felt like i was going to regret it, maybe later tonight. I hate it! Ugh. What made it worse was the 3rd presenter intimidates the hell out of me. She seems to know better than the lecturer and can point out parts of the article which he carelessly missed out. What the?! First question asked, "Is this an individual mark assessment or does the group get 1 mark?". Tells a lot about a group mate. Apparently, she has a reputation to go up to you and tell u to put in more effort. Haha...
Gota go read up on the paper about worms, and telomeres, and longer lifespan. Haha...I need to act more brainy :P And i wana go for equipping weekend next week. Shucks....How how hooooooooooooow?
In need of sleep.
Week 3 of uni already!!!!! Already i'm feeling the pressure and stress piling on. So far, i've made it to ALL my lectures, especially the 8am ones. Don't want Mel to kick my bum :P hehe...It sucks waking up so early but feels good once you go out and breathe in the supposedly fresher air. Thank God it's not the middle of winter when it would still be dark.
Waiting for my next class.
INDY!!! COME TO MELBOURNE AND VISIT MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!and grace....and yl...Haha...
I know...i should be blogging more often about more meaningful things. But i just haven't been in the talking about deep and meaningful stuff mood. That's really weird, cause...winnie, not talking.... Haha..Oh well.
In uni right now waiting for my next class. Going to be a WEAAAAALLY long day. I can predict it. Got a tute coming up where i HAVE to talk to get my 15% worth of marks. Shucks....I get so scared of talking in front of a WHOLE bunch of Ang mo's especially when i'm the only small chinese girl. UGH! Don't wana say anythign stupid and get myself embaressed and black-listed as the girl who talks nonsensical and non-brainy stuff!! ARGH! =( Don't like wednesdays....don't like wednesdays....don't like wednesdays....Hmm....
On a much happier note, bro cooked me yummy yummy dinner yesterday. Haha...I think the moon was a little bit blue last night. (bwahahhaha..:P) Pasta with napoli sauce from scratch. Well, he didn't MAKE the pasta. But was super duper yummy. Hehehe....Then had a really REALLY good time praying w Zakky dearest =) Sometimes you just don't feel like praying....or feeling too stubborn to utter even a word of prayer. But what's amazing is when someone else prays, your heart gets ministered and you can only expressed it back in prayer. Haha...I'm a stubborn girl. teehee.
There is something amazing about praying together. When you hear the person's prayers for you and know that it's not the first time those words were spoken for you. When it literally feels like he/she's holding up your sword with you cause your feeble hands just want to let go and rest. Or when you don't know what to believe, the physical voice, calling you back to the Creator brings great comfort to the soul. And most of all, you leave that place feeling filled much more than any form of satisfaction can guarantee.
Love you, dearest
ps...ok...i don't really like to publicly tell the world about my love life. But, hehe...