Don't sweat the SMALL stuff!

Title

Some people you love to please and make happy
Some people, SO impossible to make happy
SOME PEOPLE, Just don't have to give a shit about pleasing!

Another boring post

I can't ramble on enough about my exams. Sighh. Blogging can be therapeutic for me. hehe. Well, tomorrow's the day. My final paper as an undergraduate ( that's if i pass). Somehow, I'm feeling really really unprepared for this. The previous papers, I was just nervous cause I had so much to remember. This one, I don't even know what to remember. Science students, dont ever ever take "Molecular and cellular basis of physiology". I repeat, DO NOT take that subject. Although, the exam is only 65% (nothing compared to my 80% exams) and covers 4 streams each with ONLY 4 lectures, I have no idea NO IDEA what on earth they're talking about. Omg. I've already got 27% out of the earlier 35%. So, I'm hoping that'll help me through my paper tomorrow.

I just want to get it all over and done with. So I don't have to think about it so much. Maybe till a few more weeks when results are coming out. Blah*

Indy darling! Y u didn't reply my msn msges!!!! Where u go ????? ?? ? ?? ? ????
teehee.

God, I need to sleep and wake up and still remember what I read....though I don't really understand it. Sigh* Gracey! Jia yeoooo. Hugs****

Blearghhhh!

One more paper only!!! Winnie KAM!!!! Don't get so distracted!!! BLERGGHHH!!! >_<
Stay away from me if you have already finished your exams! Stupid paper on Thursday. God!!! I have no idea what it's about. Die lar die lar die lar die lar...>_<

Hungry mungry bungry sungry tungry yungry

It's 6:50pm already. And I'm hungry. Been snacking so much. Man, the amount of junk one can consume. Well, it may not be a LOT of junk for some people, but it's enough to make me feel sick. Bleh. I had red rock deli yesterday. And then bubble tea the day before. And Maggie Mee for SO MANY DAYS, I lost track. It's the I'm too damn lazy to cook season. Thank God for boyfriends who cook you yummy fish hoping it'll help improve my memory and because it's healthier than baked chicken wings. Bwahahaha.

Just had 2 exams last week. Another KILLER 2 to go. Man, the coming week is going to be MAD. Thank God my friend said she'll help me with my Thursday's paper right after our Tues morning paper. THANK YOU, FLORENCE! I'll so fail if it weren't for youuu. Sigh. So much to remember. How do they expect us to remember residues and their numbers. Name's are hard enough for me (I'm terrible at remembering names!) and numbers are just like...>_<

Anyways, going to find some food now. Need to feed the hungry brain that's been working for quite a while now. Oh wait, I slept just now, so didn't have to memorize anything then. Haha. Lazy lazy...

Adios

Dum dee dee dum...

It's so early! Maybe cos I was expecting the clock to read 11am or something close to that. But I woke up at 8:30. Shucks. Anyways, refused to get out of bed, due to various reasons. I'm all wrapped up in my blankie, typing this entry =) Was tossing in my bed this morning and just, thinking. HAHA. Random thoughts. As usual. I can just lie there and think for like an hour, then zoom back into reality. Teehee. Well, this morning, I was just thinking about exams, then trying to recall what I had read through last night so it can stick. Chances are, if I remember it first thing in the morning, it 'SHOULD' stick. HEHE.

Then my mind wandered on to a memory of some of us at Soph's place talking about a certain popular topic. Haha. SHIT! Well, we were sitting there and then duno who brought up the brilliant question, " How many little boxes of the toilet roll do you use when shit?". You know how the roll is divided into squares where you can tear. So, the question thrown out was, how many do you use. And the most vivid recollection was Yuchun and his kiam sap FOLDING of the puny square into I don't know how many halfs. YUCK! Haha...Then someone suggested use water. Was it steven. Ok, quite gross lar, but I miss those kind of conversations. SO STOOOPID, but damn funny=D Well, I think I'm not so free to count the number of petak I use. Minimise the time spent in the loo. And I don't think it was a casual observation that Yuchun manage to explain his folding method with such great detail. BWAHAHA.

Better go brush my teeth and eat me breakfast. 9:09am. Sigh. So early!

2nd entry for the night

What's wrong with me! Maybe I'm just bored. Or stressed. Or feeling crappy. Hehe. Well, not THAT crappy.

But more of feeling hope-less.
Due to accumulated events
Causing harsh words that have been spoken,
Wounds that cut real deep,
And a hope that is broken.

To everyone who reads this, DO NOT ATTEMPT TO ASK ME about it. I am not willing to talk about it. And I have no time or space in my mind right now. But if you intended to, thanks for caring. Otherwise, this is just another blog entry.
Thanks Eddy, for that insightful chat. Felt much better after that =) Remember yar, you can't party on Friday ok! Need to wait for me to finish!!!!!

Long suffering

Long suffering is when your friends are playing and partying away while you bury your head and glue your hands to your notes. One down, three to go. Sobs*

Iyer!

I'm so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cos Indy's going to be in Perth this Summer and i won't get to see her! Sobs* Was really looking forward to see you, girl! And hear all the hot goss. Nah, just kiddin. No goss. Just catch up! And maybe slip in a sing session too! Haha..Sobs*
See you, now i'm so moody already! Sobss*

I think stress has gotten the better of me the past weeks. Ugh. Iyer, dunolar. I get cranky and crazy or suddenly very kind and nice. Zakky got me a little poster thingo from Word (I'm guessing) which reads, "Calm. Cool. Contented. So we say with confidence, The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?" Well, talks nothing about exam stress but helps me find my confidence in Him. Thankkkkkkssss!

a HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUT TO SARAAAAAAAHHHHH SOH!!!!!!!! YIPEEE! If you're reading this, thanks so so so much for your friendship =) It was like a road sign in the desert place pointing me to my Source of water. THXXXX! Hope your day will be filled with hugs and kisses from people reminding you how loved you are =)

Made me glad

I will bless the Lord forever
I will trust Him at all times
He has delivered me from all fear
He has set my feet upon a rock
I will not be moved
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

Whom have I in heaven but You
There's none I desire beside You
You have made me glad
And I'll say of the Lord

You are my shield, my strength
My portion, deliverer
My shelter, strong tower
My very present help in time of need

-Hillsongs, Album: Blessed-

Argh!

I feel like i have Manic Disorder. I can be extremely happy one moment and feel terribly sad the next. UGH! Maybe it's the stress. Ok, probably overexaggerating. But it feels like my mood can swing a complete 180 in moments. Of course it needs external stimuli that trigger it and aggravate it. Also, doesn't really help that I can't sleep at nights and then toss and turn in my bed and feeding those horrible thoughts that make me feel so UGHHHHHHHHH! Feel like digging my brain out and pressing the off button for a while so I can stop feeding that monster.

Winnie Kam!!! What time now, Should be sleeping already! Ugh. Silly girl, got exam summore think so much!!! WAHHH! Cannot make it >_<

Music calms me...or maybe it helps me express myself better. Just blast some song and shut out all the other thoughts. But noise makes me so stressed. Ok, this is what happens when you can't sleep, you just keep rambling on, and on....and....on...a.n.d......o.n.......

Happy Birtday DAVE! HaHa, can't believe u got exam on ur birthday. But anyways, have fun ok! After ur paper u can party all u want!

What on earth.

Bwahahha. I always try to think of the most interesting titles for my blog but they never seem to explain the content of my entry very well. Ah well. It's 2:26am and I'm still awake. Haven't had much sleep in the past few days. Don't think I'm so hard-working ok. Just can't sleep lar.

I just sent out the most 'painful' email I had to send out ever. I wrote it and I know that it could possible change my life forever. HAHA. Drama* And all I can do is trust in the one who Gives and Takes Away. Not cause He's a sadistic God but cause He knows best =) I wish I could write about it but nah! My brain is too tired to think now. Squeezed out everything into the e-mail. Emotionally, physically, spiritually dry. God, replenish my heart.

I was humming this song just now. Hehe
"Because you loved me-Celine Dion"- I remember when we sang it during some choir thing in primary school. Or was it mother's day. Or maybe it was in Sec school. Dunolar. Love the lyrics =)
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

Madness

I think I've been at home for 36 hours. Didn't go out since 7pm on Tuesday. Wah...Madness. No wonder I was starting to feel depressed. Haha. Probably would've stayed in if it weren't for dinner with Steven. Then we bumped into Vince, Steve and Jenn. Teehee. 36 hours...Man that's a new record!

Dear God

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
If I make my bed in the depths, You are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
If I settle on the far side of the sea,

Even there your hand will guide me,
Your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
And the light become night around me,"

Even the darkness will not be dark to you;
The night will shine like the day,
For darkness is as light to you.

You are my Constant

Nosey nose nose (Part II)

BWAHAHAHA!
The following may contain a scientifically unexplainable phenomenon.

So, I was feeling rather 'San fu', or should I say have been feeling rather 'San Fu' the past few days. I haven't had good rest the past few nights as I would wake up after catching a few hours of sleep cause my nose would be so blocked. Then stay up for the next few hours trying to sleep again. As written in my previous entry, I was DESPERATE to find solutions to unblock my nose. It all accumulated till tonight (the stress + blocked nose + headache + incredible amount to study), and I finally snapped. Hrmm...

Was just pouring out to Zakky about the many things that have been weighing my heart down. As you would expect, it all came out. I guess somehow, I have been harbouring my frustrations towards God for not healing me. Through the many nights that I've had to lie half awake, not being able to sleep or to study. I know prayer was something that I had placed only half of my heart to. Silently uttering a prayer, half heartedly believing that He'll answer. Well, maybe more like "Oh, by the way, please heal me."

Then, Zakky had the brilliant-est idea that we should pray. And stubborn me just kept quiet while he did all the praying. Being the impatient me, I started to complain that maybe God doesn't hear me. Cause I'm still feeling very SAN FU! So, he said to keep asking God and bringing it to Him, because He cares for me =) OK! I decided to give it a go. And I went, GOD!!!!!!!!!!! I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU I'M VERY SAN FU. Until! I was out of breath, so I took a deep breath for the next round of 'I'm very san fu'. Then, I realised that, my nose wasn't as blocked. So, I cleared the mucous and checked if it was really unblocked. AND TADA!!!! GOD HAD HEALED ME!! I just looked at Zakky and took a deep breath. We just started laughing. Cause it felt so weird. Hrmm...Still partially doubting (yikes), I decided to wait a while. And now, almost 30 minutes later, my nose is STILL unblocked =)

g. PRAY PRAY PRAY! Much better than a-f.
God, expand my faith to believe You

Wah, so cool!

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven
Give us this day, our daily bread
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil
For thine is the kingdom, and the power and the glory
Forever and ever
Amen

Nosey nose nose

What do you do when you have a nose block?
A. Stick your tongue up the roof of your mouth and press your thumb on your forehead between your eyebrows - Uncle Joe (Doctor)

B. Sniff water mixed with a small amount of tea-tree oil - Zakky (caring boyfriend)

C. Lie on your bed with your head off the side and breathe for a while - Sze Woei (experienced nose-blocked friend)

D. Use Vicks Vaporub -Dave (just had hay fever too)

E. Buy a nasal spray - ME (desperate)

F. Take a hot shower - Me (Hot showers work miracles)

I think I have tried all except C. That's cause I just heard about it. But will give it a go the next time i need to unblock my nose. Surprisingly, the first option actually does work! Or maybe all of hem don't work everytime you try it. At least I have enough options to rotate around. Like when I've used the nasal spray once, I've gota wait another 3 hours before I can use it again. So meantime, I can try option 1 which probably can be used as many times as you want. Just be careful not to press till you get a mark on your forehead. Or when you're tired of it, you could use Vicks, then when you need a break from studying, hop onto the bed and try C. Then when you think you've rested enough, proceed on to F and tada! You'll probably feel refreshed and should be able to use the nasal spray again! Owh, erm the tea tree oil doesn't quite work. Leaves you feeling a bit weird after that. HEHE!

BWAHAHAHAH!!
I'm just being silly. LALALA. I'm stressed ok. Sheesh. Oh, Btw, have you all met Donut. Give him a pat =)