Don't sweat the SMALL stuff!

What happens when you put 4+1 mad girls together

Monday was fantastic. Met up with the girls and Swee after almost 3 weeks. Went to Red Box and sang our lungs out. Mad mad bunnie had to pick all the dumb F4 songs. Too bad we love her so much. So we put up with them for what seemed like torture. Bwahahah... Sorry lar, I'm not a sucker for pretty boys who can't sing to save their lives. Bwahahhahahahha :P Anyways.....it was MAD. We had a whole list of songs many of which we didn't make it to the end of the song. Songs by Kelly Clarkson, Whitney Houston, Hillary Duff (oh mannn), Lindsay Lohan, F4, BACKSTREET BOYS! We even sang 'Rasa Sayang", can you believe it. It was hilarious.

Seriously, the MTV karaoke version is quite disturbing. Most of them had women in bikinis dancing around with the camera zooming at a certain part of her anatomy. Oh man, terribly disgusting. Any song and every song had to have some woman moving about. Gosh. Bwahahha...Disturbing :P

Then we drove to get egg tarts and picked gracey up and finally went back to YL's place where we looked through some of her childhood pics. Well, her and her bro. Bwahahha. (wink to the girls*) After about an hour, we headed for dinner. Had to change our initial venue a couple of times because it was raining and the traffic was just crazy. Good thing we had each other to entertain ourselves.

Girls, whatever we talked about in the car will stay in my head for a while. Haha. And bunnie's obsession will be remembered especially when i have kids :P Thanks so much for taking time out of your week. Really enjoyed the experience. Indy darling!!! Wish you were here. Missed you muchie muchie!! :P
Hugsssss to ma gurlss... XOXO

2:21 am 19th Jan 2006

You know, it's really evil how anger and bitterness can keep you awake. To the few who actually know what my previous post is about, you probably think I'm sulking over something that is insignificant. But it's a big thing to me! Or maybe there's a deeper issue. All of a sudden, it involves a few other people and maybe that's why it hurts so much. Shucks. This is getting depressing. Haha.

But I can't seem to sleep. Partly due to the amount of worry piling up and also because of my blocked nose. I think I have a sleeping disorder. I sleep when I shouldn't and I can't sleep when I should. Hehe...Like in lectures, I can fall asleep unless I sit up straight and make myself write notes. Or like during a sermon. Though I very much prefer to walk out than to be caught dozing off. So, if ever you catch me walking to the back, high chance that I'm too damn tired to listen..

I feel really crap, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Haven't had much sleep since my last post. Doesn't help that I'm feeling extremely weak now cause all the flu. Maybe I need Vitagen or Yakult! Or Ribena. Apparently, it has duno-how-many-times more Vit C than orange juice. Or something like that. But i think the sugar level is still too high! I know why I suddenly fell ill! I've been drinking Vitagen faithfully the past few days, then I stopped! Haha, nolar, I don't think that's the reason. :P

I'm not thinking straight. I'm tireeeeed. I should cut my hair. Or maybe perm it too. Like indy's hair last time. Nice nice...=)

It's too early

Woke up with my lungs feeling terribly congested. Cough cough* Hope I didn't wake my sis up =P Have been feeling kinda sick the past 2 days. I suspect it was the heaty food and the lack of H20. So, here I am. After tossing and turning for about 45 minutes, I finally decide to get up and walk about till I feel tired enough. Yikes, got a movie to catch later. Hope I have the energy to get out of bed.

Sigh. I've just had so much to think. Partly why I've been kept awake since I woke up a while ago. I hate confrontations. I hate having to tell someone or anyone how I really feel. Maybe it's the fear that I'll just breakdown and look like an idiot. Haha. I don't know. I just prefer to keep it all inside or better still, let myself feel angry and scream at everyone. Cause I've learned that when you show the Hurt-you, people don't really listen or care. But when you show the ANGRY-you, they are forced to listen. Unless of course they walk away. But when it all subsides and the top layers are stripped away, I'm left to fend for the poor little girl who just wants to know that someone cares (ok, maybe more than SOMEone. Some selected few).

I think I'll never really understand why you would do something like that to me. Maybe I expect you to be a mature enough person to not start crying out and throwing a fit when you want something that never really belonged to you. I can't understand even more how you'd be willing to put our relationship on the line just to satisfy your selfish hunger of grabbing from the people whom you think you can grab from. I can't understand how you'd use the people closest to me to get something that means something to me, because you want it, because you THINK you deserve to have it. A gift is something that is given. Not snatched. I can't understand how you'd be so cold-hearted to think only about your selfish desires and not about how I feel. You never stopped to ask. You only demanded. You never cared to listen. You only knew how to brag about how much you think you deserve it. Brag about what you're doing to get it. I can't understand how anyone could treat anyone like this, with such lack of respect or love. I can't understand how you can actually be proud about what you're doing.

Maybe today someone died. Not physically. But in my heart.

Pic-tures

Just realised that I've got more scenary pics still in my camera and I don't have my cable with me. So, this is what I've got =)

Chris and Em's anniversary

Rebecca and ME

The Chris smile

There's food

More food

Still more food

Ahh, I'm satisfied

And Just happy =)

I'm back!

Spent the last 11 days in KK visiting the place, the people and for an International Retreat. Really enjoyed the stay, the food. Wish I had more time for the beach or perhaps some diving. Haha. Someone's gota carry my tank for me, otherwise I'll sink. Teehee.

Sidetrack : I can't believe maids have handphones nowadays! My temporary maid's phone just rang like 3 times in the past half hour. Oh man! So happening. Now, anyone and everyone has a handphone.

Anyways, back to KK. Should be putting some pics up but I've got a terrible headache now and I'm feeling pretty crap cause I wana watch 24 but have to battle this headache. Ugh. Might put up some pics when I'm more free next time :P

I'm BACK EVERYONE!!!!!

01-01-2006

Well, the last few minutes before the new year wasn't as exciting as I had imagined. Haha. Firstly, I wasn't feeling too good so I spent most of the hour before all the fireworks and countdown being super quiet and just lying on the sofa. Barely had the energy to sit up or keep my eyes open. Ah well....

Will be flying off to KK in less than 12 hours. Haven't started feeling excited about it yet. Maybe cause I've been having too much fun the past week! haha. Thanks people =) Or maybe cause I can't stand the thought of getting on the airplane again. Ugh. I hate it! But I'm sure I'll feel better by tomorrow morning.

Anyways, to all who care and want to know more about my trip, tune in again maybe in 2 weeks time. Might blog about it before that if I can get internet connection. Teehee. Otherwise, take care and a blessed new year.