Don't sweat the SMALL stuff!

Monday monday monday...

I hate Mondays...Oh. Sunday nights too. The day started off bad. Maybe it was because I thought it was going to be a bad day so everything I encountered was BAD. Can't blame me, I've got a ****** super. Anyways, had to go in and weigh the poo and then measure their blood pressure. I don't like lastminutecrampitallin work. I don't like lastminutecrampitallin work. Makes me too stressed and then I'll get a headache and then the rats can sense that I'm stressed and they'll be super difficult to handle. SOB* So taking a longer lunch break to callm myself down before I have to face those rats again. Coffee is good. Coffee is good. Coffee is good. Ah...Aik Cheong coffee is better. AHAHA. Ok. Just trying to waste time so I don't have to go back so soon

I've been eating too much too often the past week. Aiyayayaya. Maybe it's weather. I feel full but I can't help it. Just need to finish the food. Otherwise I feel bad for throwing it away or feel like I'll miss eating it so I better eat more now. Cause when I want it then I won't be able to have it straight away. So I need to make myself super satisfied and not wishing i ate all of it or even feel sick of it so I don't want it. AHAHa. Weir-do. I made 'thong yuen' with gula melaka inside last night. Yum..Or at least I thought it was yummeee... Dududu...I want carrot cake recipe...Yumm.. :P

See, I keep thinking about food. >_< yum-mie
Lalala...

Peek-tures

Too irresistably cute!

"What you looking at huh?!" *hurrrr...

"I wonder what's at the other side....?? If I eat more and lean over then it might topple over and then i can seee!!! Wooot* Eaat moreee...."

"I'm too lazy to stand up. Blarh...Takes too much energy!"

Crazy week ahead!

I've just sat down and planned for next week with the supe. It's going to be M-A-D! ARrr. Can't believe he's so damn frustratingly last minute. You know me. I hate last minute work. Especially when you didn't use ur brains to think earlier that you want to do that measurement. aRRR. So I need to come in longer this sunday and probably miss church and then collect poo. FOR REAL. I need to collect the pang sai first thing on Monday. HAHA. Oh well.

From 36 to 18. Sob* Going to miss my babies. Sob* Hope I don't cry. Hmm... LAST MINUTEEE. Braahhh.. And then gota do blood pressure measurements. This weekend is crazyyyy too. Equipping Weekend and Communion Lunch. ARRR. Just thinking about it makes me want to sleep now so I have enough energy for the week ahead. AHAHA.

Zzzz..Still can't find my cable to upload pictures. Wonder where I put it....

OMG. The fire alarm just went off and 3 fire trucks came. ARR. Wonder what happened. So interesting :P

Winnie Weekend

Woohoo! Had a fantastic weekend. To those who took the time and effort to share it with me, THANK YOU. For all the presents, cards, smses, flowers, notesoncards, hugs, calls, balloons, kisses, speeches and foooood, THANK YOU. I wish I could list out everything and THANK YOU for it, but I'm too sleepy. Will save it for another entry. To dadmumsisbro (though I doubt u'll all read this. Teehee) thanks for the lovely card and the video (which i will see in a while). To you and you who sang me the songs, THANK YOU. To you and you who opened up your house for us, THANK YOU. To YOU who ran about emailing, smsing, organizing though you so-don't-like-it-but becausei'myourgirlfriend, cooking breakfast, stressing, bringing me to Smith St and Ikea (hehehhe) and for the cross pendant THANK THANK THANK YOU . XOXO. To everyone else, I lurrrve ya all heaps :P

Had the best birthday ever. Wish it didn't have to end. I feel so paiseh cause I didn't expect a huge thing. I initially wanted a big dinner sorta thing but realised tt Wency had the same bday and probably a lot of people wouldn't be able to make it. So I was kinda leaning to a small cosy dinner. Teehee. Sneaky people going behind my back planning a surprise. BWAHAHA. Got the loveliest presents. I'm so proud of the two similar necklaces that I got. Show's that you all have good taste. No I don't favour one over the other. Both are unique :P I'm so proud to show off the cross pendant Zakky got for me. BWAHAHA :P bwahahhahaa...bwaahhaha.

Pictures to come on the Multiply site when I find my cable and get around to compiling them. Will show you Mr. Smiley. Cutest thing ever. haha. Erm, got some pretty crap pictures from Sat night's dinner. SOB* Lousy photographer! ARGH. Anyways, though I'm sick and justwanttosleepathome, I had the bestest time.

Typing in the dark

I'm actually typing in the dark. well, half dark cause the side light is on. FYI, i can't sleep if it's pitch black. Hehe. Weirdo me :P I so should be sleeping but there seems to be toooo many things on my mind at the moment. Uni, whattodo after uni. Arr. The fact that I'm growing old. Haha. Gosh. Hate that feeling. And don't like sharing the same birthday as someone else. *puts in gloomy face.

This is probably going to be another boring ol' post which has no specific main point. I'm feeling all over the place, hence the allovertheplace-ness. Then again I only like to blog when I'm all over the place. So everytime I blog, I am all over the place. Ok, I'm not making sense. I'm lost. Too sleepy.

Just reflecting back on the good old days when everyone was young and carefree. Not so cynical. Not so preoccupied with other things and growing up. When we'd laugh at sillyjokes that made no sense. Hehe. Miss those times and miss those friendships. I guess people move on. Sigh. I worry that I may not be able to connect with some friends at a more personal level cause we've changed so much. All we can talk about is the doings and the happenings. But not so much how we really are. Not that it's bad. But just different.

Oh bummer.
(Time goes by...so slowly.....-current song in my head. Laughing at how it should be changed to time goes by too quickly..)

This

SUCKS!

Ugh. I feel so disappointed. SO FREAKING DISAPPOINTED! =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Hate it.

I wish I had a bigger heart.

So many things have been on my heart the past few weeks. Well, to list a few, uni, work after uni, God, choir, bunch, specific people whom I'm learning to pray for consistently not for the sake of praying but just a certain 'burden' to pray for them, relationships (broken and not so broken ones), my sore eye that feels like there's a piece of sand in it, my sore nose with the big big BIG pimple in it. Ei, I duno how it decided to grow INSIDE my nose ok. I clean it often enough and make sure no peisi gets stuck there...for too long. HAHA. JK. Haih.

Somehow it feels like my life is on fast track again. Some of the things that I've been desperately trying to bury are resurfacing again. But this time, I'm learning to allow it and not frantically run around looking for something to hide it. UGH. At the same time, I'm experiencing a certain sense of grace over my life. Hmm. Cannot seem to explain it. And I just want people to see it too. To experience the freedom. ARR. Hence, the title of my entry, I wish I had a bigger heart. I think I'm going to explode soon (in a good way). Like my freaking pimple. Explode when the time is right. HAHAHA. ok, Bad analogy. Teehee. Just feel like writing blah without worrying if it might offend people, or if it is too honest. Something that I haven't done in a while. DUDUDU...

Anyways, I smell food. Not that I'm hungry but I'm feeling really greedy. So...I'm gona dig into my pack of Doritos. Bwahaha

So this is what it means....

To scare the crap out of someone. Which in my case, my rats. Sob* So poor thing. Teehee. I have been busy sniffing poo and piss in my lab the past 2 days. Not that I pick them up and smell their bum. But cause I've been measuring their blood pressure using a non-invasive tail cuff method. It's scary for them cause obviously they don't understand what I'm doing and it's a foreign thing to them. What I do is, I put (often times persuade) them into a transparent cylinder that exposes their tails and put the tail cuff measuring device around their tail and basically let them sit in this machine which can hold 6 rats at a time. Then the computer does its trick, bla bla bla pumps air bla bla bla and the receiver picks up the systolic blood pressure and heart rate. TADA! Unfortunately, my little rats get scared when the tail cuff tightens. So they crap a lot A LOT AAAAA LOTTTTTT and pee all over. Till I feel like my hair smells of pee. EWW. Nolar. JK. But each rat poopes about 4-6 biji of shit. And it's the lau sai kinda colour (greenish) So, quite gross lar. And if they poop on the machine, i gota pick it up (I wear gloves, don't worry) and throw it into the bin. And if they move a bit then the measurement is inaccurate so I gota measure again.....and again....and maybe again...AGAEEEEIN....

I didn't realise that the measurements must be done around the same time, so it means I can't finish everything today. Gota come in tomorrow around 9ish to finito the rest. WOOT* 6 more to go. TEEhee..I'm so sleepy. I had a weeeeeeird dream. I shouldn't really blog about it due to ethical reasons. AHAHA. I might tell u if i can remember, or if you ask. AHHAHA. That's why I'm a Sleepy lala* today. Woke up from the dream feeling so EEWWW-ed about it. BWAHHAHA.

I duno what's wrong with me. I have my moments when I'm just BWAHHAHAHA and moments when it's just *hear crickets in the background. Then again, I'm rarely quiet. Except when I'm hungry, angry or just too tired to make any more sound. Must conserve energy mar. Aiks. Talking nonsense already. BWAH.

Reminder to self: Shouldn't overeat cause the stomach feels like it's exploding! Booooof* (Spilled guts) BWHWHAHHAHAAHA. Oh no, I'm going nuts!

Uninspired

I've been feeling terribly uninspired the past few weeks. Well, I have my moments where life feels like it has brand new meaning. But then I fall back into the routines and hence the lack of inspiration. SIGH. I've got so much to do yet I can't seem to get my lazy butt to do it. I so need to clean my house! ARR. Not that the trash is piling up, just the eeky feeling that I haven't cleaned it in a while. Well, some of the girls might be coming over for a girls night this Thursday. So, maybe I got more motivation now to clean it. ARR. Then I wana go watch a movie. And bake muffins...and cook risotto. But I got tonnes of work from uni that I so should not leave to the last minute. BUT as usual, I get so bored of the work that I leave it aside, in hope that I'll come to my senses a bit later and finish it.

So, a group of them went up to Syd. Probably still driving there as I'm typing away in gloomy-o-Melbourne. I tell you! I just want a week off man. Shucks. Israel and New Breed are worship leading and taking a few sessions i think. That Cindy Cruz lady too. Oh man. I've always listened to the album and wished I could meet her and ask if she could teach me to sing in Spanish. Haha. Something about her voice and spirit that is like...WAH I WANT TO MEET YOU! Hmph. Okok, no idolatry. It's God that we worship, not them. SOB*

I'm going to start measuring blood pressure this week, so I'll be super busy and exciting. Or at least I anticipate it to be busy. Haha. Oh bummer. Of aaaaaaall years that I WANT to go, this is the year that I can't go! ARR. Why don't they come down to Melbourne. It's not that far. They've already flown so freaking far, just come to Melbourne only lar! :P heh. Oh well....

LAlalalalala. Feeling a bit silly. Should get back to my work, then can enjoy my ham, cheese and egg bagel. Yumm..